Suwandi

Category: Life

  • 309


    Yeap! Finally, this is my 309th post!

    Have been blogging since June 2005, hmmm more than 4 years! Just read random post from 2005, gosh, it was so fun back to those days, my first post in this blog was about my trip to Surabaya where I stayed in Sheraton Surabaya, and then, the very next post was about my trip to Semarang to visit Ike, and I stayed in Novotel Semarang.
    Few days later, I was in Medan, stayed in Novotel Medan, for a project. And just after that, few days from the Medan trip, I was in Makasar, and I didn’t post anything about my stay, just a note from the sea side. 🙂
    Few days after Makasar, I was in Bandung with my brother, Rika, and Ike, and then flew to Bontang. Later, went back to Pekanbaru.
    Wew, i could not believe myself. I traveled all over (well, not all over, but quite many places) Indonesia in just 3 months. Sumatra, Jawa, Kalimantan, and Sulawesi. I think my trip to Papua is in 2005.
    Anyway, just a quick flashback to 4 years ago. 2009 is fantastic, everything is fabulous!
    Yeah, the word is fabulous! This my 309th post, it’s not the number that matter, it’s about how I can stay writing craps. 😀
    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • Bolder

    Ive crossed the deserts for miles
    Swam water for time
    Searching places to find
    A piece of something to call mine (Im comin, Im comin)
    A piece of something to call mine (Im comin comin closer to you)

    Ive crossed the deserts for miles
    Swam water for time
    Searching places to find
    A piece of something to call mine (Im comin, Im comin)
    A piece of something to call mine (Im comin comin closer to you)

    I am EXCITED! I look forward to a bolder result. Boldest!

    I promise my self to be as aggresive as the fiercest lion, the fastest leopard, and the hungriest tiger.
    I vow myself to be better, like Lincoln once said “To remain as I am is impossible; I must die or be better” 😉
    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • Hard on You & Gasoline

    Rob Thomas:

    you and me got so much to prove
    your the only thing that I cant loose
    the nights are peaceful here in our room
    please forgive me if I’m hard on you
    please forgive me if I’m hard on you

    cause I didn’t mean to, didn’t mean what I said
    all the things I said to you
    but maybe the worst is the best I can do with you
    and I never want you to go , but I know
    how the mood it waits too slow
    and I fall apart cause it’s all that I know

    Sometimes, you have to let go what you’ve been loving for so long 😉
    but you can never win
    you can never lose
    that’s the scorned heart
    then you throw your head back
    and you laugh at where we are
    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • Something of Something in Everything

    Trying to offload something in my life. Actually, I am offloading some of my life, I am serious. I have been part of this something for so long, it even feels like my last name. Can you believe it? But, for the sake of my life and my future, sometimes you simply can not have too many. You need to let go of something to get another big thing.

    (Just remember a radio tag line: “because one is never enough, and three is simply too much!”)

    I was never a believer of limit. I have a strong confidence that sky is not the limit. That you can do anything in your life, that you can get on top of everything. But, seems like I’ve been lying to myself. There is a limit, there is a constraint.
    You will never want to have everything, and at the very same time lost everything, right? So, i think offloading something is probably something best to do at the moment.

    My life is superb! I got something so called DREAM, and then HOPE, and then PLAN, and then I am now more than ready to start my engine!

    I now can look beyond the horizon. Thanks to everyone who wakes me up, and makes me able to see things! 🙂

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • My Past Self. A Reflection.

    I like my friend (Ferdy)’s photo album title “Do you remember the time of your life? Well, i’ll show you mine.”. Nice title, indeed.

    I do remember few clips of time of my life. I know I lost many, tho. But, i remember my lovely family, my friends, my good friends, my good times, and my bad days.

    Kinda nice to reflects and go through few years behind. It is amazing for me to be what I am today, and it is also amazing for me to be able to imagine my self in a very different situation for next 5 or 10 years. When i go through my past life, i am (honestly) amazed with: what have happened, with whom I have discussions with, with those who have helped me through hard times of life, with lessons from my parents, with jobs I have taken during my schooling years, with several bad experiences.

    I am blessed, without I am knowing what I have done to deserve all these. All the small things and the big things, all teachers and life gurus. My mentors and my friends. The bullying and all the praises.

    Many things I have been trying to remember today. And, what could have happened to me without all these things taking places in the past? I never know.

    – I worked with my brothers and cousins, washing dishes and tables in a coffee shop (my aunt’s shop), and in return after 1 full day of work, I enjoyed one plate of Sate and free flow of Ice Tea. I would love to thank my mother and my aunt. This experience teach me that hard work is necessary, and there is no free Sate, and that when you enjoy something, you are not actually working but instead you are living.

    – A friend (Siska) actually helped me a lot with my final paper, she arranged everything from arranging a friend to pick me up and to help me meeting her boss. I would love to thank her for all the troubles, without she asking for anything in return. This experience teach me that friendship is not about take and give, it’s all about giving.

    – A friend (Toto) arranged everything for me during my early days in Jakarta. He took me everywhere, introduced me to all the good lads. We gambled together, partied together, scored few goals together. I still meet Toto and several of the lads until today. This experience teach me that hard life, hard days is nothing with friends around you. That this life is not about finding something you havent found, but instead it is about being grateful with what and who is around.

    Well, “Do you remember the time of your life? Well, i’ll show you mine.”.
    I am grateful.