Suwandi

Category: Life

  • Tuesdays With Morrie

    Sometimes you cannot believe what you see,
    you have to believe what you feel.
    And if you are ever going to have other people trust you,
    you must feel that you can trust them, too —
    even when you’re in the dark.
    Even when you’re falling.

    Just finished Tuesdays with Morrie. Several friends recommend that book, until last week I saw it in my verygood-friend’s book-shelf. I read it during my flight to Palembang last sunday, and finished that book this morning (damn it, i can not sleep past 6).


    Published 10 years ago, and I really dont have the eagerness to even sneak a peek, until last week. So, i read, read, read… and after few chapters, i just could not stop. Not a fast reader, so took me several hours to finish the book.

    AND, i can tell ya, it’s my life-changing-book. It’s not that now I am a new me, but i mean if you read this book, at least you have a willingness to really understand your self, your family, your surrounding. And, by understand, i mean understand.

  • Who Am I

    *written on Oct 13th

    Booked a taxi to airport this morning. Quite a while since the last time I book a taxi for my flight, but today is different, it’s Moslem’s Idul Fitri, and I reckoned most taxi driver take a day off. So, i book! For 5.15am.

    At 4.45, after taking my damn early shower, the taxi company called me. “Pak Suwandi, are you downstair? Is this you that in front of the lobby?”

    “No! I’m still inside”, actually I was like 3 km away, “Why?”
    Replied “Oh, there’re many people wait ooutside for taxis, can you go downstair?”
    “Soon! Please wait in parking area, I’ll car-call the driver”

    Damn! Quite thrilling! Thinking what if I can not find a taxi!

    Twenty mins later, I’m in the taxi, and the driver told me that several guys claimed he is actually Suwandi. What?!

    See, when you ware cornered, YOU CAN BE ANYBODY. Probably, you can be Bush, Osama, Rob Thomas, or Ujang. You probably wouldn’t be too ashamed to be somebody else. You’re losing yourself.

    Instead of asking “Which one is Suwandi?”, the driver should have been asked “Who did order taxi? Please also give me the name of the guest” 🙂

    When somebody, out of the blue, asking you “Who are you?” in some point you funnily ask yourself that particular question :

    “Who am I?”

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • Fray’ing My Soul

    Dont exactly know why, but everytime i tune to The Fray – How To Save A  Life, i get this spooky feeling. Try this, you watch the video:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKxnJ5iyC-w

    and while watching, you read this lyric:

    Step one you say we need to talk
    He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
    He smiles politely back at you
    You stare politely right on through
    Some sort of window to your right
    As he goes left and you stay right
    Between the lines of fear and blame
    You begin to wonder why you came

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Let him know that you know best
    Cause after all you do know best
    Try to slip past his defense
    Without granting innocence
    Lay down a list of what is wrong
    The things you’ve told him all along
    And pray to God he hears you
    And pray to God he hears you

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    How To Save A Life Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    As he begins to raise his voice
    You lower yours and grant him one last choice
    Drive until you lose the road
    Or break with the ones you’ve followed
    He will do one of two things
    He will admit to everything
    Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
    And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life
    How to save a life
    How to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life
    How to save a life

    I read this song is the “outlet” of Fray’s lead singer Slade, who once lost a friend (drug addiction). I dont know any friends with particular situation, but still, how come i thought i’ve lost a friend ya?

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • And, now…

    Now I am connected with Telkom Speedy, yey! 🙂
    Dunno will be better or worse, but i believe if it’s better than telkomnet instan, or starone post-paid, then i will have no complain. Been living in the low. ‘Low’ in terms of troubling connectivity. Sometimes to the point where you feel like to slap your monitor. (i did not do that)

    Anyway, just realised this is my first post after 40 days. Damn, it’s long!

    Have you listened to The Fray? Try their ‘How To Save A Life’, the OST of Grey’s Anatomy. Good tune.

    I will write more in next coming days! Many things to write. And, oh yeah, coming back home tomorrow. Can’t wait!

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • Change

    “Suuu!!”

    Weird! Been a while since the last time i heard my name shouted! Looked to the source, which is my left, and i found my college class mate, Jourdan. Damn, kinda forget that it’s been 4 damn year since the last time i saw him.

    “Oh ya, kenalin nih, istri gue”
    “Ha? Istri? Serius, Jourd??”, quick look at her finger, damn, he’s not lying (who will lie about these stuff, anyway). “Wah, dah lama yah? Gua ngga tau lho!”. He smiled.

    “Masih di Jakarta lu??”
    “Yep!! Masih!”, I replied.

    “Masih tinggal di kos dulu??”
    “Yep!! Masih, Jourd!”

    “Masih di perusahaan konsultan??”
    “Yep!! Masih!”

    Damn!!! Pararelly, my mind was thinking, am I all about insignificance? Was my life was only ‘this’? Where’s the boy with the big dream? Where do the picture of greatness I hung on wall of my everyheart?

    People say “Change is the only constant”, i said “Fuck!”, getting older is the only change, at this moment. And if you think getting older is constant, you might be right, but i dont need a philosopher to tell me so.

    Where’s the CHANGE? change?

    Later,
    “Nomer hape lu masih yang lama, Su?” Ah-ha!!

    Well, maybe i’ve changed, (at least)!
    “Wah, gua ganti, Jourd, nih gua miss-call yah!”

    He left, i left. Back to my business (you may say busy-ness, but I will show you!)

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)