Suwandi

Author: Suwandi

  • Fray’ing My Soul

    Dont exactly know why, but everytime i tune to The Fray – How To Save A  Life, i get this spooky feeling. Try this, you watch the video:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKxnJ5iyC-w

    and while watching, you read this lyric:

    Step one you say we need to talk
    He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
    He smiles politely back at you
    You stare politely right on through
    Some sort of window to your right
    As he goes left and you stay right
    Between the lines of fear and blame
    You begin to wonder why you came

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Let him know that you know best
    Cause after all you do know best
    Try to slip past his defense
    Without granting innocence
    Lay down a list of what is wrong
    The things you’ve told him all along
    And pray to God he hears you
    And pray to God he hears you

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    How To Save A Life Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    As he begins to raise his voice
    You lower yours and grant him one last choice
    Drive until you lose the road
    Or break with the ones you’ve followed
    He will do one of two things
    He will admit to everything
    Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
    And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life
    How to save a life
    How to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life
    How to save a life

    I read this song is the “outlet” of Fray’s lead singer Slade, who once lost a friend (drug addiction). I dont know any friends with particular situation, but still, how come i thought i’ve lost a friend ya?

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • And, now…

    Now I am connected with Telkom Speedy, yey! 🙂
    Dunno will be better or worse, but i believe if it’s better than telkomnet instan, or starone post-paid, then i will have no complain. Been living in the low. ‘Low’ in terms of troubling connectivity. Sometimes to the point where you feel like to slap your monitor. (i did not do that)

    Anyway, just realised this is my first post after 40 days. Damn, it’s long!

    Have you listened to The Fray? Try their ‘How To Save A Life’, the OST of Grey’s Anatomy. Good tune.

    I will write more in next coming days! Many things to write. And, oh yeah, coming back home tomorrow. Can’t wait!

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • Cellphobia?

    Found good article in Yahoo!Health.

    “…Like many people, I find that I use my cell phone more and more. There is no denying that this device has changed the way we live.

    However, not all of these changes have been for the better. It is clear that cell phones have changed our behavior in ways that impact our emotional health and our interactions with other people.

    Dependence
    We used to be quite content spending time alone, walking down the street or waiting in a coffee shop for a friend. Now, however, many of us seem to feel the need to be constantly connected to another person via a digital device.

    No moment can pass without the emotional security blanket of holding on to another person electronically. This is a kind of dependence that tells us that it is not OK to be alone, that we are somehow lacking without constant connection with another person.

    INDEPENDENCE TIP – Try being alone for a few hours. If you are shopping or walking or driving, turn off the phone. See what it feels like to simply be on your own without giving in to the habit of carrying around all of your friends and family via the cell phone…”

    Well, gonna try? Let’s!

  • Change

    “Suuu!!”

    Weird! Been a while since the last time i heard my name shouted! Looked to the source, which is my left, and i found my college class mate, Jourdan. Damn, kinda forget that it’s been 4 damn year since the last time i saw him.

    “Oh ya, kenalin nih, istri gue”
    “Ha? Istri? Serius, Jourd??”, quick look at her finger, damn, he’s not lying (who will lie about these stuff, anyway). “Wah, dah lama yah? Gua ngga tau lho!”. He smiled.

    “Masih di Jakarta lu??”
    “Yep!! Masih!”, I replied.

    “Masih tinggal di kos dulu??”
    “Yep!! Masih, Jourd!”

    “Masih di perusahaan konsultan??”
    “Yep!! Masih!”

    Damn!!! Pararelly, my mind was thinking, am I all about insignificance? Was my life was only ‘this’? Where’s the boy with the big dream? Where do the picture of greatness I hung on wall of my everyheart?

    People say “Change is the only constant”, i said “Fuck!”, getting older is the only change, at this moment. And if you think getting older is constant, you might be right, but i dont need a philosopher to tell me so.

    Where’s the CHANGE? change?

    Later,
    “Nomer hape lu masih yang lama, Su?” Ah-ha!!

    Well, maybe i’ve changed, (at least)!
    “Wah, gua ganti, Jourd, nih gua miss-call yah!”

    He left, i left. Back to my business (you may say busy-ness, but I will show you!)

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)

  • Why?

    Why are you here?
    No, not in this weblog, but why are you here on earth?

    Try to answer that simple question. Why are we here in the first place? Whats the mission? And why we have such mission? Who send us?
    Are we just a complex union of cells? Souls are part of the cell combination?

    Are we just like the flower, blossom without reasons.

    Don’t know where I am, don’t know where I’ve been
    But I know where I want to go

    (Taken from ‘The First Day of My Life’)